Midsummer 2018 The Dark Side @AlinaMeridon

Light & Dark

This has been a dark year, with fools and fascists creeping into the light with ever greater confidence.

my syllables cut
by executive order
and kept in cages

our humanity
is measured in dollar bills
we’re easily mugged

the fascists return
bleeding through our broken world
history unlearned

always with balance
in cabinet and in news
we’re led to chaos

viva la brexit!
we carve ourselves to the bones
to feed the vultures

  • Trump has voiced his admiration for dictators, and seems quite determined to turn the land of the free into a Nazi superstate.
  • May and the Brexiters seem determined to fulfil Putin’s dream of a divided Europe, and the rich and superrich are circling like vultures in anticipation of the resulting fire sale.
  • England is home to a particularly foul breed of transphobes who imagine themselves righteous warriors and silenced victims of a grand, patriarchal conspiracy – but they are far from silenced and the British press gives them a powerful platform for their hate and misinformation.
  • Europe, poor Europe! Don’t let the fascists win!

Not hard to see, the dark side is. Anger, fear, aggression,…

But let’s have some light to begin with.

The tale of blind Jedi Master Ko Hoshino and her journey to becoming one with the Force.

The tale of blind Jedi Master Ko Hoshino and her journey to becoming one with the Force.

Freya Pickard

I’m delighted that Freya selected three of my haiku for her blog this year. The themes were celestial bodies and oceans.

  • Venus, twilight enchantment
  • Pluto, caution before gods!
  • Celestia, (more celestial bodies)
  • Sharks, for the Ocean series

National Poetry Writing Month (NaPoWriMo)

For this year’s NaPoWriMo I ranted about transmisogyny and press bias, for the most part, writing daily quintets of haiku – until I was just too depressed to continue.

a binary ex
too consumed with asking why
I saw shades of grey

sex is binary
attraction is after all
particle physics

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September 2017 Gravity @ AlinaMeridon

What is it with women and moving vehicles?

So, Saudi Arabia to allow women to drive in major milestone for country. Excellent news, of course, but I was amused to read: “In October 2013, shortly after a prominent cleric claimed that medical studies showed driving damaged a woman’s ovaries, 60 women took part in a protest, driving in spite of warnings from the authorities.”

Amused because last year I spent a couple of weeks hunting for the origin of the quote: “Doctors warned that the unusual physical exertion, combined with the perilous lack of corsetry, would damage the feminine organs of matrimonial necessity and shake them loose…” This quote, however, is from 1896 and relates to women riding bicycles (see summary).

Plus ça change…

Gravity

I had the opportunity recently to watch Gravity in which Sandra Bullock must somehow get back to Earth from Low Earth Orbit amidst a rain of space debris that destroys the space shuttle, the Hubble space telescope and the International Space Station; the planned Chinese space station is destroyed also, although mainly because it’s well below its planned altitude (for unexplained reasons) and starts burning up in the Earth’s atmosphere.

I love the film for its visuals and the detail of space technology, but I found the premise of the story, and the periodic showers of space debris, very confusing… So I decided to write a computer programme – a simple one – to simulate the destruction of a satellite and the consequent space debris. I have uploaded the video and you can see it here on Youtube.

Simulation of satellite explosion inspired by the film Gravity

Simulation of a satellite explosion in a Low Earth Orbit and the resulting space debris, inspired by the film Gravity.

Still, it would have been a very different story if physics had its way:

Howards’ Ends

Last week I watched The Other Boleyn Girl on Netflix, with Natalie Portman as Anne Boleyn and Scarlett Johansson as her sister Mary; the film is based on the book by Philippa Gregory. While there was much to enjoy in the re-creation of Tudor London and court life, the story took major liberties with historical fact. (For a detailed discussion of the book’s and the film’s deviation from and attitude towards historical accuracy, see Fact, Fiction, and Philippa Gregory.)

While I found the historical inaccuracies generally confusing, what really horrified me was the characterisation of Anne Boleyn as a jealous sister and vile seductress, willing to tear England apart for the sake of ambition. Descending into madness as she fails to produce a male heir and the king neglects her in his pursuit of other beautiful young women, she resorts even to incest, sleeping with her brother.

Such an utterly villanous and contemptable mischaracterisation has surely not been seen since Salieri’s conflicted hatred of Mozart in Amadeus – and there, at least, there was no pretence that this was honest. Amadeus was a film explicitly about mediocrity, and invited the viewer to delight in the fun and the music and the spectacle of it all.

But all The Other Boleyn Girl does is reiterate the damnable fiction spun by the villains who destroyed Anne Boleyn. Shame on you, Philippa Gregory, for dressing this up as feminist.

Thomas Howard, the 3rd Duke of Norfolk, was Anne Boleyn’s uncle, and uncle also to Katherine Howard, the fifth wife of Henry VIII. In the litany of wives (divorced, beheaded, died, divorced, beheaded, survived), Anne and Katherine were the two who lost their heads. Although Anne is mostly viewed with sympathy these days, and as undeserving of her fate, Katherine is seen as the foolish girl who tricked the king into believing her a virgin and who cheated on him later.

Even Lucy Worsley portrays her as the seductress, groomed and prepared by her uncle the Duke, and concludes with very little room for doubt that there was an affair with Thomas Culpeper. However, she does also discuss briefly Katherine’s early life and what would, to our modern eyes, be regarded as child sexual abuse.

Josephine Wilkinson’s Katherine Howard: The tragic story of Henry VIII’s fifth queen takes a much more detailed look at this, revealing just how betrayed Katherine was by those with a duty of care, and how fragile her happiness must have felt to her, surrounded as she was by those who knew the truth of her childhood.

Because she was happy, and she made the king happy, and it really doesn’t make sense that she would jeopardise this.

Lilith, contd

After her expulsion from Eden, Lilith discovers the joys of mischief.

Sexbots

A trio of recent posts from IFL Science:

  1. Arlan Robotics has created “an incredibly realistic droid that when assembled looks, smells, feels and moves like a real human” (Meet The World’s First Adult ‘Service’ Droid). [Warning: Watching the video will make you want to hurl your computer/device out of the nearest window.]
  2. Please remember: There’s nothing wrong with sexbots. There may be a lot wrong with the people who (ab)use them: Sex Robot Has Traumatic Experience At Technology Festival And Is Forced To Retire Many Body Parts. The article also talks about the use of sexbots in brothels: “Fanny became the most talked about sex robot in Kontakthof, a brothel in Vienna. She was spoken about so often that she became more popular than the actual sex workers.”
  3. Far more exciting, however, are the scientific advancements: Scientists Create Soft And Super-Strong Synthetic Muscles For Lifelike Robots. Now, this has nothing specifically to do with sexbots, but, hey, who am I kidding. Soon we’ll be able to design and 3D-print genitals to order…

In Jennifer Pelland’s Machine, the novel’s initially human protagonist, Celia, becomes a machine for medical reasons, but her wife refuses to accept her as one. Celia copes with the pain of this rejection by trying to become more of a machine, in a quest to transform away all remnants of her humanity. (This novel is not about sexbots, but touches on themes of machine sex and also machine sex work.)

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May 2017 Fairytales @AlinaMeridon

infinite haiku: silk caught in flies caught in silk ...The Enchanted Forest

After last month’s perverse and slightly disturbing foray into sexbottery, this month I wrote a lesbian fairytale romance between a bard and a warrior (hmm, what does that remind me of?), the warrior (a trans woman) being a knight on a quest and the bard being a singer of spells and a fugitive slave. Let’s have a blurb:

When fugitive slave Kari dares to enter the enchanted forest that her mother disappeared into years before, she stumbles across a wounded knight and uses her skill as a bard to heal. The pair find themselves trapped by the forest, and their only hope is to find the Silver Queen whose tears are the last hope for a dying princess.

Written in thirteen instalments (adding up to approximately 13000 words), it is written as a lesbian romance, but it’s also a fairytale fantasy with fairies and giants and other magical creatures.

  1. The Enchanted Forest: 1. Blood in the Water
  2. The Enchanted Forest: 2. What’s in a Name?
  3. The Enchanted Forest: 3. Hot Water
  4. The Enchanted Forest: 4. Waking Up
  5. The Enchanted Forest: 5. Knitting Needles
  6. The Enchanted Forest: 6. A Guide Book
  7. The Enchanted Forest: 7. Shining Armour
  8. The Enchanted Forest: 8. The Silver Knight
  9. The Enchanted Forest: 9. Dragon Slayer
  10. The Enchanted Forest: 10. Baby Blues
  11. The Enchanted Forest: 11. The Oracle
  12. The Enchanted Forest: 12. The Silver Queen
  13. The Enchanted Forest: Epilogue

I had fun trying to distinguish between different sorts of magic, with the bard singing rhymes to call on nature’s magic, while the wizard meddles with other-worldly stuff, and so on. Maybe one day I’ll explore this world and its magics properly. (The best books I’ve read for magical details are the trilogy by Lyndon Hardy.)

The Loveless Princess – An Aro/Ace Fairytale

Lilian Bodley’s The Loveless Princess, published May 2017, is a fairytale with an aromantic heroine. A heroine who is a princess, and a princess must love her prince. Everyone knows that…

Not all fairytales are romances. Fairytales often have very poor characterisation, and they’re mostly about a scenario and its consequences. There’s a lesson of one sort or another to be learned about life, and the obsession with true love winning the day is a very modern one. Cinderella is the classic modern fairytale (see Aromancing Cinderella) of the good-hearted girl being rescued by a prince, combining tropes such as True Love and Love Conquers All and Love at First Sight, leading eventually to a Happily Ever After.

But maybe it’s propaganda, much like the Catholic Church saying, “No matter that you suffer in this life, be good (and obey our authority) and you will be rewarded in the next.” Cinderella the fairytale is saying, “Be a good girl and obedient, and maybe one day a prince will carry you away to a life of bliss.”

It is the voice of patriarchy: “Be a good girl, and obedient, and you will be rewarded with marriage. Of course, if you are spectacularly pretty and have a godmother that can introduce you to high society, that may help you catch the eye of the prince – and a pair of stripper heels wouldn’t go amiss.”

Such is the power of our modern fairytale romance, that we demand it in real life too. Charles and Diana – how perfect! How tragic! How could he not love her? How dare he not love her!

The Loveless Princess starts with a fairytale wedding. Yes, it’s a political marriage, arranged without the happy couple ever actually meeting, but the expectation is that the handsome prince and the beautiful princess will fall truly, madly, deeply in love and be blissfully happy for the rest of their lives. If this were a fantasy instead of a fairytale, the bride’s mother would be saying, “Look, maybe you won’t love him, but try to make the best of it.”

But in a fairytale it has to be love. Even if he’s gay and she’s aromantic and the chance of either ever falling in love with the other is smaller than a fairy’s freckle.

It’s a little confusing the way The Loveless Princess uses “love” to mean essentially romantic attraction and “desire” to mean sexual attraction, because that gets in the way of a more subtle exploration of love and desire. On the other hand, this does reflect characters who barely understand themselves and feel utterly alone in a hostile world. I enjoyed the story, but I do feel it could have been done better. There is more world-building and character-development than a fairytale normally gets, but not enough to make it work as a fantasy.

Valentina Lisitsa playing Liszt's el Contrabandista while waiting for a train at St. PancrasAnd finally…

A couple of music videos for your entertainment: First, Valentina Lisitsa playing Liszt’s el Contrabandista while waiting for a train at St. Pancras.

Leontina Vaduva and Placido Domingo singing Caro Elisir from Donizetti's L'Elisir D'Amore at the Gold and Silver Gala at Covent GardenAnd second, Leontina Vaduva (a beautiful Romanian soprano whose voice I adore) and the incomparable Placido Domingo singing the delightful Caro Elisir from Donizetti’s L’Elisir D’Amore at the Gold and Silver Gala at Covent Garden.

that I had such wine
to summon the wrath
of a goddess

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April 2017 Sexbots & Poetry @AlinaMeridon

I have been reading… Leona Carver’s Transformation

Transformation by Leona CarverLeona Carver’s Transformation (LT3, goodreads) caught my eye. I’m not sure I knew that it was the third novella in the series when I bought it, but I gave it a go anyway. (While it’s not really necessary to read the other books, it would probably be better to.) Lesbian romance and terraforming – what’s not to like? Plus, I adore the cover.

I dislike stories where the reader is well ahead of the main character, and nearly abandoned this at the start, but once the story shifted onto the planet I found it much more enjoyable. Not only the characters, but the careful thought that went into the science and technology of terraforming a hostile alien planet. (Reminded me a little of Sheri S. Tepper’s Hobbs Land Gods.)

I have been listening to… Elektra

I enjoy listening to BBC Radio, and two plays stood out this month. One was Catriona Knox’s Almost Like Being In Love. The main character describes herself as heteroflexible, in a very philosophical way, and finds herself falling for a lesbian. The script is full of the almost clichéd responses to this apparent change (or non-change) of orientation that you might expect, adding an element of not-quite-comedy to the romance. It’s really a sweet and simple tale of an open-minded ‘straight’ girl discovering she’s bisexual and everyone generally being in denial of bisexuality. What it isn’t, really, is what the description said: “What does love look like in a world of non-binary, gender-fluid, constantly hyphenated thinking?”

The other play was Sophocles’ Electra, which is all about Orestes and Elektra complaining about how evil their mother is. Never mind that Agamemnon murdered Clytemnestra’s first husband (and child, possibly), or that he sacrificed his daughter (and their sister) Iphigenia, or even that he’s been away for over ten years doing whatever it is kings do with captured slave-girls (he even brings one back with him), no, the only thing that matters is that their mother took a lover and killed their father.

It’s tragic, really. But it inspired this little tale of Agamemnon’s home-coming:

  • Cassandra, The ill-fated princess speaks; her last prophesy falls on deaf ears…

Salma Harek as EverlyI have been watching… Everly

Everly (2014) blends kick-ass girl, vengeful woman and determined mother in the talented and beautiful form of Salma Hayek. A desperate attempt to escape a life of confinement, abuse and slavery fails, putting her mother and daughter’s lives in danger. As a string of deadly assassins try to kill Everly, she struggles to guide her family to safety. Often dark, often funny, always brilliant.

Almost Adults filmAlso on Netflix, Natasha Negovanlis and Elise Bauman (who were Carmilla and Laura respectively in the fantastic Carmilla webseries) star in Almost Adults, a delightful coming-of-age film with elements of humour and romance.

And the latest Star Wars film, Rogue One, was also much enjoyed.

National Poetry Writing Month (NaPoWriMo)

Last year I didn’t have a theme for NaPoWriMo (see April 2016 Iphigenia @AlinaMeridon) but in 2015 I had a theme of steampunk, and in 2014 (my first NaPoWriMo) I chose Supergirl – which started my poetic love affair with Kara El.

In the spirit of perversity, for April 2017 I chose the theme of sexbots. They are of course a recurring theme on this blog, in connection with my unpublished and ill-fated novella Alexis 5-1-8. I recognise that this is a subject that few are interested in, and one that is somewhat antithetical to poetry (sexbots being base sexuality versus the elevated refinement of poetry), but in challenging the assumptions about and the instinctive reactions towards sexbots, it’s intriguing to see the mirror they hold up to society.

sexbot
some mirrors reflect
too well

The following collection of poems and articles is not erotic. Sometimes there is humour, and sometimes darkness, but I have aimed for compassion and truth.

Sexbot Articles

Sexbot Poetry: Mythology

Sexbot Poetry: Sexbot as Lover

Sexbot Poetry: The Dark Side

Sexbot Poetry: The Sentient Sexbot

Sexbot Poetry: Objectification

Sexbot Poetry: Humour

August 2016 Summer @AlinaMeridon

old man willow singing
a web by the water’s edge

a vision of gold
breathing light into the dark
the old worm slumbers

At the end of July I was in Veliko Gradište in Serbia, entirely without internet access for over a week. Instead of writing for my blog, I was chasing mosquitoes around the house, or enjoying beans cooked over an open fire (they even had a competition for this in Veliko Gradište, dozens of groups clustered about barbecue fires by the side of the Danube), or drinking beer (every visitor to Serbia quickly learns the word ‘pivo’), or reading Lord of the Rings for the nth time (I got all the way to Shelob’s lair)…

Silver Lake near Veliko Gradiste in Serbia

Until 1971, Silver Lake (a popular holiday destination near Veliko Gradište in Serbia) was an arm of the Danube.

I have done a fair bit of writing these past two months, but not for my blog and not for publication – although I have also been writing a second part for my ill-fated Alexis 5-1-8. Maybe I can extend it from a novelette to novella. On a related note, here’s an interesting article about sexbot prostitutes: Robot Brothels Could Soon Become A Reality.

Joo Yeon Sir and Irina Andrievsky playing the Porgy and Bess fantasy by Igor Frolov Joo Yeon Sir and Irina Andrievsky playing the Kreutzer sonata

In July I had the great fortune to attend a concert in Buxton where violinist Joo Yeon Sir and pianist Irina Andrievsky played Beethoven’s Kreutzer sonata (image/link on right) and Igor Frolov’s Porgy & Bess fantasy (image/link on left). I had often heard of the Kreutzer sonata, but it wasn’t a piece I was familiar with. Joo Yeon Sir played it beautifully and passionately, and I was delighted to find the same pieces and performers on YouTube.

Silk Over Razor Blades by Ileandra Young

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October 2015 @AlinaMeridon

In August’s round-up I mentioned having written a Sci-Fi short story titled Alexis 5-1-8 that I had submitted to a publisher. Alas, this was rejected. The publisher was unhappy that some of the content borders on dubious consent – dubious consent? moi? never! – which is actually a reasonable concern, although it’s an interesting ethical issue in relation to a sexbot designed and built to be used without consent ever being required. Anyway, that has now been submitted to another publisher and fingers are firmly re-crossed.

More exciting is that my other summer story, I Like It Hard, finally came back from the editor… First off, let me say that I think it’s awesome to have my story being looked at by an editor on behalf of a publisher. I usually do all my own editing, and I have my own preferences regarding grammar and so on, so that inevitably there have been points on which I do not see eye-to-eye with my editor. But grammar is a minor issue. I finally have someone to read my work critically and say things like:

This entire section is all telling and no showing. We’re just given an overview of what’s happening (as opposed to being “there” while it’s happening), and it’s interesting but not particularly engaging. You want the reader to want to keep reading, and this doesn’t really do that.

It’s valid criticism, and responding to such criticism can require significant modifications to the text – and I am someone who likes to get things right the first time rather than edit and edit to perfection. But having an editor point out the weaknesses in the story and the writing has forced me to revisit and revise. And, really, there were a number of significant issues, and I struggled with them even while writing. I Like It Hard is an odd story and some of the decisions I took while writing it have bothered me since submitting it.

Version 2 has gone to the editor now, and if nothing else the story has increased from 13000 words to 17500 words, which is a more satisfying length.

Last month I had a cheeky Pride & Prejudice haiku, and I thought you might like another one:

Wickham’s neighbour I
vie for young Lydia’s eye
and her sweet treasure

I feel I should point out that Whickham is a small town close to Newcastle upon Tyne (where I live and where Mr Wickham ends up in Pride & Prejudice).

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Cover of Deadly is the Female by Laura Huntley

August 2015 @AlinaMeridon

It has been another relatively quiet month over on Alina Meridon, this time partly because I was holiday in Crete for two weeks, and partly because, for the second month in a row, I got wrapped up in writing a story.

The new story ended up at 18700 words and is provisionally titled Alexis 5-1-8. It’s a blend of science fiction and lesbian romance, and although the main character is a sexbot there’s no erotic or explicit content. I’m often intrigued by the idea of sexbots, but almost invariably feel frustrated by stories about them, so this was my attempt to explore the idea. I’ve sent the manuscript to a publisher, but haven’t heard back yet; nor have I head anything back yet about I Like It Hard, possibly because all the cover artists were away on holiday too…

The nice thing about holidays is you get a chance to catch up on reading. I have a number of things on my Kindle list, but struggled to get into them; instead I devoured Bob Shaw’s Orbitsville and Stephen King’s Under the Dome, before requesting an ARC of Sophia Martin’s sequel to The City Darkens. But, of course, there was a little time spare for writing poems…

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Cover of After the Fall by Sophia Martin

July 2015 @AlinaMeridon

Cover of Lesbian Succubus Diary and other steamy stuff by Francis James FranklinIt has been a relatively quiet month over on Alina Meridon, partly because I have been so busy at work and home, and partly because I got wrapped up in writing a story that ended up just over 13000 words and is provisionally titled I Like It Hard. But it has been a good month, not least because I wrote a novelette (which has been accepted by an independent publisher – more on that some other time); Tera S, Queen of the Succubi, has written a wonderful review of my recent collection of poetry and short stories, Lesbian Succubus Diary & other steamy stuff:

I adored this story, really could not put it down and, I freely admit, I reread the story several times. There is just something about the work that tugs at me and I think that comes from the concept that succubi are complex beings, capable of love, but also needing to survive through sex. It is that conflict which pulls at the characters at several points, leading to heartache, heartbreak, and, eventually, revelation.

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Cover of The City Darkens by Sophia Martin